Falling Apart or Falling Into Place?

"I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. This poor man called, and the Lord heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles." - Psalm 34:4-6

The past month of my life has been nothing short of a train wreck. And if I explained everything that has happened, you could only come to the conclusion that my life is falling apart. Now we don't need to get into the specifics but (trust me) it felt like it was falling apart. I was in this valley that only kept getting deeper and there was no sight of the hill that I could climb towards. See the thing about me is I've never known what I wanted to do with my life, even when I was little. Someone could ask me "What do you want to be when you grow up?" and I never really had a definite answer. I mean sure I gave speeches explaining how I didn't need to know the answer yet because I was 8 #PageantLife, but the answer isn't as valid for someone who is almost 20 now is it...

So I went into College seeking Business because Business is versatile and flexible, but the sad thing is Business is boring and to me has no passion. But I stayed in it for over a year hoping that I would eventually find my purpose in it, because with purpose you find passion but there was nothing. And all this climaxed to a tipping point in my life where I had to switch majors. So I switched to Communications.

After switching, everything, literally everything in my life switched from falling apart to falling into place. I felt better, I slept better, I was becoming better because of one change that was only a fraction of the reason for a month of hardship. For the past year I had been keeping myself busy trying new things and thinking "How can these new skills relate to Business?" and now that I have made this perspective change I noticed that everything I enjoy doing and am passionate about fits more easily under Communications.

Now you might be thinking, "Did she really have such a low from her major?" the answer is no, I didn't. When you are in school and not enjoying any of your classes and then your personal life falls apart too, academics can be your saving grace. But when academics aren't great either, something has to change, so I made that change and I am so happy I did.

So here is where my peace lies:

"I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. This poor man called, and the Lord heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles." - Psalm 34:4-6